Tuesday, June 11, 2024

AN ODD RECOLLECTION

 

School summer break, little Indian town

mid noon stares of burning sun on empty streets 

the small iron grilled window up the wall

one nine year and another ten

perched on the long couch below

fried cashews and raisins afloat the milky rice pudding 

my mum's little summer treat.

 

couch jumping a naughty pastime 

mum's reprimand on siblings deaf ears

sudden fear in my eyes replace the frolic

a tall strange rustic face at the windowsill

my sister runs for mum

he threatens to kill my dad.

stone faced; body transfixed

my twin ears hear door latched from outside

frantic steps of my mum from inside 

he disappears.


Desperate attempt to open the door, 

shout for neighbours

their doors latched like ours, 

phones alien in our town houses then

huddled in houses, mum stares out of window

clock ticks, some passersby on street at last

our door unlatched. 


subsequent unlatch of neighbour's doors 

men returning home from work

setting sun has a tale to settle

the afternoon scares shared 

a tight hug from dad, we feel safe.


A thief my dad caught in a house break in.

a different street, a different year

yet his memory strong of my father's face

just like mine today

his revenge found our address

my dessert of raisin and cashew lost taste.











Monday, June 10, 2024

MY IV DRIP

 Mine is a mix of various concoctions

My mind left for a minute spins dramas of fear, guilt and dread

sagas enough to fill theatres all over the world

stories so dramatic and intriguing, many a time spiced unconsciously by me 

it's as if my mind knows me better than I know it 

 a part of me, yet seems so out of control 

it just waits to gallop, tired lands me irritated and angry

relations strained with words that mind spits out.


Mercy of online search engines

picked up one tool for repair

morning pages being my first shield,

exercise, meditation, scripture reading suffixed 

Each seeped into my life

a daily routine I adhere on most days

keeps me afloat


Times I feel abandoned, caught in claws of my mind

I get sucked, old practices ready to engulf me

my new practices throw the anchor

the rope I miss at times

Few years ago, scorecard was one on ten

more than half a dozen years of try

scorecard now around five on ten.


Sudoku, poetry, singing and reading my stepneys

I look forward for my own company

Mood swings now an occasional flu

 medicines do work, 

I just try to remember to 

stock myself each day.